MHAM 8: Fight Song

 

Post Topic: What is your #Migraine and #Headache fight song? Tell us why you chose it.
I had a hard time finding the challenge, I started late, but I want to do this one because of how important music is to my pain management.

(Lyrics: https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2012/03/22/%EC%8B%A0%ED%99%94shinhwa-breathin-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/)

Breathin‘ by Shinwa

Botox is hard. The first time I was sitting on the table eyes closed, tense, and rigid. I was counting, thinking about the pain, how I was not going to cry or flip, and I was praying hard. I was think singing the Doxology in hyper speed and repeat.

Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye heav’nly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Amen.

My doctor patted me on the shoulder about five shots in, I need you to breath.

I felt like it was only me, the pain, the needles, and an empty lonely space. The doctors encouraging words didn’t help.

My thoughts suddenly went completely blank mid “creatures” for a few seconds, then I herd the end of the song,
“Breath…see it, feel it, enter the door of time together, we’re back.”

And then the song started from the beginning. Listening to the guys in my head and remembering the loose translations got me through the treatment. I kept breathing. I wasn’t alone, I had God, the doctor, and four students around me and we were in a very bright room. The doctor was giving me the last shot when the song ended.

I still listen to this song when I need encouragement. This is defiantly not a religious song or about being sick, but the song encourages me to seek God or the person I need to get through the moment. If I don’t try to meet my needs as sick person it’s foolish. Keeping relationships are hard especially when we are prone to seek our safe place. One thing we can do is to keep the door open. These people can help us do that by sharing happy memories, reminding us of times where we had fun despite the pain or of good times. The song also taught me another coping method. I can, with difficulties, let these memories of physical pain crumble, scatter, and fly away. In time I will feel alive for a few minutes again. Take time to feel myself breathing. Keep praying on shooting stars. That is how I can breath knowing I have to do it all over again.

 

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